Wednesday, January 31, 2007
i really think that blogs sometimes are losing their purpose
u cant really express what you want
things that you want to say but u cant
simply cos once posted
can/may offend others
which can land you in hot soup
bah
what can i say
january is coming to an end
february begins
my life is the same
still on course at CITI
you know something
theres this self steem fund set up by dove
targeted at girls to make them feel good about themselves
but what about the guys
its not only the girls who suffer from low self esteem
its just that is easier for them to express themselves
girls can shed tears more easily
can be more emotionally without being critiqued by society
people imo are more accomodating to girls in need
what about guys in need?
guys need a shoulder to lean on to
they also need the social bonding among their peers too
bah why cant guys have the same avenue of release
is it becos of societal perception that still advocates
"machoism" among guys
come on times are changing
bring in the snags please
there are so many things that are bugging me in my heart but i cant let it out
so much baggage
spare a thought for guys too
afterall we are all human aint we
9:47:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
lets just say that this day has been totally crap
red eye is caused by something that actually cut my cornea.........
didnt noe that until today when i saw the eye specialist
that could explain why i keep on getting red eyes in the past 5 weeks
could it be the last ex back in december?
luckily i can still see normally
surge of feelings
everyday just feels so darn draining
on weekends u just want to relax
how do you chill?
i detest the feeling of seeing ur weekends just fly by
cos u are u so socially inempt to have an outing or something
u dont have a good social life
u revolve around playing games on your ps2
u hang around the arcade trying to play the game only to have hoards of people hogging the place
u try to bury urself in anithing that provides a distraction
u read forums online
ur internet time revolves around blogs, forums
u want to let out this burning surge of frustration by desrtroying things
going on a rampage
yet u risked being viewed by others as a lunatic
in short
life can be sweet
but other times
LIFES a DARN pain in the butt
12:47:00 AM
3 times in 5 weeks
Friday, January 19, 2007
woke up this morning
and my right eye is red again
this is the third time i kena red eyes within 5 weeks
SUAY!
darn drained throughout the week
currently learning some basic i mean basic carpentry stuff
sawing wood
nailing them together etc
its not as easy as it sounds as i soon found out
everyday i tell myself to try to sleep early
in the end still sleep late
everyday feel so sian and tired
groan
reminds me of school days
forever feel like sleeping in the morning
the doc say i may be allergic to something rather than an eye infection
but what is it?
i have no freaking idea
progress on final fantasy 12 is still quite slow
60 hours plus with probably another 20-30 to go before finishing
for those greatly stressed
take a moment to relax
have a break
5 mins of peace can do wonders
11:08:00 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
There'll a lot of songs that i want to post
here is just one of em
read the lyrics
it saya a lot
haha
Gwen Stefani
Wind It Up
High on the hills with the lonely goatherd, lay-od-lay-od-lay-he-hoo
Yodell back with the girl and goatherd, lay-od-lay-od-low
Wind it up
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Yodellay, yodallay, yodal-low
(Yeah)
This is the key that makes us wind up
When the beat comes on, the girls all line up
And the boys all look, but no, they can't touch
But the girls want to know why the boys like us so much
They like the we dance, they like the way we work
They like that way that L.A.M.B. is going across my shirt
They like the way my pants, it compliments my shape (She's crazy, right?)
They like the way we react everytime we dance
Everytime the bass bangs, realize it calls your name
Let the beat wind you up, and don't stop till your time is up
Get in line now
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Yodellay, yodallay, yodal-low
You've got to let the beat get under your skin
You've got to open up, and let it all in
But see, once it gets in, the poppin' begins
And then you find out, why all the boys stare
They're trying to bite our style
Trying to study our approach
They like the way we do it, so original
I guess that they are slow, so they should leave the room
This beat is for the clubs, and cars that go
Everytime the bass bangs, realize it calls your name
Let the beat wind you up, and don't stop till your time is up
Get in line now
Uh, uh, uh, wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
(Ya'll ready)
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Yodellay, yodallay, yodal-low
Uh huh, it's your moment
Uh huh, come on girl, you know you own it
Uh huh, you know your key is still tick-tockin'
Hell yeah, and you know they're watchin'
Get it girl, get it, get it girl
Get it girl, get it, get it girl
To the font, to the side,
To the back, but don't let him ride
Keep goin' girl, it's your night
Don't let him steal your light
I know he thinks you're fine and stuff
But does he know how to wind you up?
(Come on)
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Wind it up, uh, uh, uh, uh
Yodellay, yodallay, yodal-low, hey!
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http://www.absolutelyrics.com/lyrics/view/gwen_stefani/wind_it_up/
11:24:00 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
its just me and my insecurities
a hot girl on the bus ( ex cj)
two darn crowded arcades
one long bus ride
hell lot of kiddos/bengs/lians/middle aged peeps/angsty youth etc
lots of time wasted
darn today totally " rocks"
on one hand i want to buy a psp memory stick
on the other hand i probably wont really use it....
my sis is pestering me to help her buy the burning crusade redemption card..
bah
1:25:00 AM
feelings of emotionless
Friday, January 12, 2007
oxymoron aint it
when u have feelings
ure not supposed to feel emotionless
well this week mostly been on course at CITI
learning some basic skills related to construction
exception was tuesday morning went back to camp
for battalion pt
and then packing stuff for standby duty which is coming soon
one feeling that i really hate
is the feeling of withholding deep frustrations within yourself
u see at times u can get very pissed off with what people nonchanlantly utter
u want to tell them off or in more crude terms
fark them upside down
yet for the sake of not creating such a scene
u keep quiet and try to ignore it
bah
more pressing issue
possibility of returning to camp tml....
certainly dont want that
some people should watch their mouth before shooting off
you never know it
but words can have a big impact on a person
emotional wounds last far longer than physical ones
10:34:00 PM
construction learning?
Sunday, January 07, 2007
so 07 has arrived
9 months of ns down
2 months of general stayout life awaits
attending some construction course at CITI at bradell
hm beats staying in camp
but some days still got to return to camp
OC has placed some soc training for second year window opening around march/april
standby duty coming in the third week
one thing i read on the net
makes a lot of sense
it takes a long time to build up a friendship
its harder to maintain one
yet friendships can be destroyed so easily
in minutes, days when building one can take months
another thing that i notice
u can get so worked up playing a game
gaming is supposed to be fun
yet at times u end up stupendously frustrated
11:28:00 PM
